Transitioning Through Grief

The last 4 months since my husband passed away have been very hard. Despite having a daily spiritual practice, knowing how to meditate and use energy healing, I could not deal with everything. All the emotions that came up were very raw and painful. And the tears, continuous tears.

John_Cath_1994I now know the meaning of the word- wail. Everything I thought I knew or believed has come into question. Why? Why did he have to leave? Why can’t I connect with him?

Dealing with everyday activities was very difficult. I lost my patience. Gradually, I am coming to accept what is and that my life will be different.

“What will I do? How do I want my life to look now, I asked myself?” I couldn’t visualize anything. I couldn’t journal about anything I would want except to have John back, healthy and happy.

Being in grief, brought up other past grief that was unresolved. Being in grief brought my physical energy crashing down. I slowed down to basics, eat, sleep and clean up.

Gradually, as my energy level rose, I began to address my “to do list” and it was overwhelming. “Wait a minute, I thought. It’s not about doing. It’s about being. How do I want to be? How do I want to feel in this moment.”

Deep, breath in, deep breath out. Deep breath in, deep breath out. All the “to do’s could wait; they were already waiting.”

I reached for a piece of paper and drew a picture of me meditating with the golden light flowing through my chakras. And I saw that my list could be as easy as 1, 2, 3. ( eat, sleep, clean up) (get groceries, call a friend, watch a movie) (sit outside watching the rain, do laundry, cook something new).

Next to my list. I drew a chart labelled – List to the Universe.


I wrote my concerns in wordless, symbolic strokes. The Universe, God, Source, All that is, would know how to take care of things. My energy shifted as I scribbled and I drew colored shapes and symbols that felt like desires and new possibilities. I could let go now. The Universe knew what I needed and my heart’s desires.

  • What would be on your list? What would you let the Universe handle?
  • What are some go to tools that you use regularly for clarity and peace?

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Catherine is an intuitive consultant, energy healer and spiritual coach. She has been a healing arts practitioner since 1982. Catherine has the unique ability to draw from different modalities, combining them with her intuitive gifts to offer practical and clear guidance for her clients. Catherine helps her clients clear their past, center in the present and take the next steps to create their future.

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