Slowing Down to the Speed of Life

In my last ezine, I mentioned that I was slowing down and taking the time to be intentional. I found out that I didn’t really know what slowing down meant.

stellaIn March, my 2 cats were sick. My 19 year old cat, Sydney Rose, was fading fast and crossed the Rainbow Bridge. My 6 year old cat, Stella, had cystitis and I made several trips back and forth to the vet. Finally, between the vet, meds, herbs, and prayers, Stella recovered and is healthy and happy. (click here for full details about Stella)

When she got better, Stella wanted to be outside a lot. One day, I wanted to go shopping but she had not come home yet. I was nervous about leaving her outside if I wasn’t home, so I decided I will just do some more cleaning. (instead of sitting with my feelings and getting calm).

And then bam!! I had emptied the recycling trash can and was going to put in a new bag (but the cover was on the floor) and as I stepped forward to get a bag, my foot got caught in the cover and I went sliding across the floor and fell face forward into the open dishwasher door, landing on my knees.

Although the dishwasher door had hit the side of my head, it did not knock off my glasses nor hit my teeth. I was thankful that I was able to get off the floor.

After dealing with the pain of the fall, using homeopathic creams and remedies, and the irony of not being able to drive after just getting back into driving after 10 years, I thought, well I guess now I can focus on my new website. But there was no energy to do so. Some of my friends thought maybe it meant I didn’t want to move forward. Hmm, I didn’t think that was it.

I know I was frustrated by lack of movement after my initial vision. However, I thought maybe more was changing than just the name and look of my new website. I was rethinking what I wanted to share, my philosophy, beliefs as well as my services. As this was all happening during Mercury retrograde, I decided to let things unfold slowly, VERY SLOWLY. It was very important to look at who I was being rather than what I was doing or not doing.

After reflecting on my fall from many angles. I realized that it is important to choose how I wish to feel. I choose to feel peace and calm. I choose to notice if my head and feet are going in the same direction.

Slowing down to feel my feelings, notice my thoughts, my actions and my environment has helped me feel better. Slowing down has helped me emerge from the fog of grief and shifting to glimpses of sweet memories. I am getting more comfortable with sitting in the not knowing. I am getting more comfortable sitting with the questions — what’s next?

And when I get into a tizzy of seeking answers, I talk to my friends and we brainstorm options and what ifs until I start laughing. Often I will draw pictures of these options and hang them on the wall. I smile when I see the pictures. I am reminded of these possibilities and more that I cannot see.

What I have learned is that slowing down is self -care. I give myself space for letting go of the old and open up to the new.

*Details about Stella’s Healing

Stella has always been a reflection to me of my inner emotional states from the time I first found her. When I noticed that she was crying and could not urinate, I was having the opposite situation — constantly running to the bathroom.

I was in great angst over the medication given by the vet, because (a) Stella fought me giving it to her, (b) I was worried about the side effects as I prefer natural remedies and homeopath, and (c) confused over the whole situation.

Fortunately, the vet listened really well and we tried one med at a time and I was able to tell her about my research. She recommended special food by prescription, and cranberry juice extract.

I began thinking about the emotional issue I was going through and prayed aloud to Archangel Raphael, to release Stella from any need to carry and reflect my problem with letting go. (I was still having a hard time grieving for my husband).

I followed this with lots of attention to Stella, affirming her own body’s healing, and how she was doing such a good job of taking the medicine.

And here are more links to Stella’s story

Catherine is an intuitive consultant, energy healer and spiritual coach. She has been a healing arts practitioner since 1982. Catherine has the unique ability to draw from different modalities, combining them with her intuitive gifts to offer practical and clear guidance for her clients. Catherine helps her clients clear their past, center in the present and take the next steps to create their future.

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