Emotional Triggers and Healing Past Wounds

Last summer, I had rescued a little black kitten. She was so scrawny and her ears were so big that she looked like a bat. I named her Stella Luna. In the children’s story ( Stellaluna by Jannell Cannon),  the little bat is separated from her mother and is later adopted by bats. She tried to be like the bats, but of course she couldn’t be something she was not. Later she is reunited with her mother.

I began thinking about the possible message Stella was bringing me. What abandonment issues did I have? Where did I not fit in?  Perhaps I was over thinking things a bit. Stella grew and all seemed fine. But a decision needed to be made about spaying her.

We brought Stella to the vet for her check up and I was still thinking about having her spayed. They set up the surgery for the next day and kept her overnight. Stella had not cried or meowed in the carrier, but her fur kept shedding during the office visit as she tried to squirm away. The vets would not do the surgery without some tests and shots. I was reluctant about some procedures as we have used homeopathy and other natural remedies for our cats.

As we drove home, I was distressed about not having communicated enough to Stella about what would happen, and concern over the medications.

I cried and cried and cried. She so trustingly got in the carrier and now she was all alone. I did some EFT tapping about this. I asked my friends to pray but I still kept crying.

Why was I overly emotional in this situation? In meditation I remembered when I was 7 years old. I had been rushed to the hospital with acute appendicitis. No one explained anything to me. My parents were not allowed to be with me (this was the 1950’s).  I was so upset that it took four assistants to hold me down for the anesthesia. When I woke up, no one was there. I made up a story that I had landed on an alien planet and I would observe everything for my report.

I have done much healing and forgiveness work about this situation, so I was surprised that it had come up again. As I was still crying and it was late at night, I called the World Ministry of Prayer (at Science of Mind) 720-496-1369.

As I sobbed and told my story and how I felt silly about being so emotional, the prayer facilitator said, “See Stella as a channel of love for this healing.” Immediately, I felt a calm come over me. I went to bed and was able to connect with Stella, sending her loving thoughts as I petted her in my mind.

I couldn’t wait to pick Stella up the next day. When she got home she ran into the closet. But when she woke up, she climbed on my bed and slept on my shoulder all night.  We were both exhausted.

I must admit that I thought twice about writing this article. There are so many major events and big issues happening in the world. My situation seemed so small. But, then I truly believe that each one of is a unique spirit, everything is important and we are all connected. Thich Nhat Hanh in his book,Peace is Every Step, teaches that mindfulness and awareness in our daily lives can transform and heal difficult psychological states. He also shows the connection between personal, inner peace and peace on Earth. I have reread this book many times over the years and highly recommend it.

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Catherine is an intuitive consultant, energy healer and spiritual coach. She has been a healing arts practitioner since 1982. Catherine has the unique ability to draw from different modalities, combining them with her intuitive gifts to offer practical and clear guidance for her clients. Catherine helps her clients clear their past, center in the present and take the next steps to create their future.

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  1. Debby Smith says:

    That was a beautiful story and one that I could truly relate too! I’m so glad you shared.

  2. Kim says:

    Thank you for sharing this. It helped me and reminded me to not judge myself with my issues that I think are “silly” when really they are simply opportunities to move deeper into my own divinity. This is exactly what I needed as I have been very judgemental with myself the past couple of days. I didn’t see this before and now I do. Thank you, thank you, thank you!

    • Catherine Rose Stevens Catherine Rose Stevens says:

      You are welcome Kim. Reminding ourselves of our own divinity and accepting ourselves is an ongoing process.
      Peace & Blessings to you.