There is a quote on my calendar that I have been reflecting on for several weeks.
“If you want a tree to grow, it won’t help to water the leaves.
You have to water the roots.”
Thich Nhat Hanh
When I wrote the words “Powerful Presence Purpose and Passion” on my 2015 Vision Board I was surprised. Power is not a word I usually use when I think about myself. I usually think of myself as gentle, supportive and having inner strength. But my thoughts and beliefs about myself have been shifting.
Do you believe in life after death? Do you believe that your soul continues when you leave the physical body? I had believed in the concept, but it was very difficult to hold onto after my husband passed away in May. I couldn’t feel his energy, see his face, hear his voice, receive any messages. Was I caught in an illusion where we had made this up to feel better?
The last 4 months since my husband passed away have been very hard. Despite having a daily spiritual practice, knowing how to meditate and use energy healing, I could not deal with everything. All the emotions that came up were very raw and painful. And the tears, continuous tears.
A few days ago there was a break in the winter weather. It was warm and I was able to sit outside and soak in the sunshine. Just sitting outside without thinking, without trying to figure things out.
Suddenly, the phrase, “It is already done,” popped into my mind. It was a phrase from “Say Yes to Your Success” by Kim Burgner, founder of NWA Center for Spiritual Living.*